Invisible boyfriend

and so, i did it. keeping the distance aint easy, but i got to. already broke my own rules and called him so many times right after. he seemed more controlled. fuck it. but i got to. being together aint easy. we thought we could. i thought i could. but too many times i failed to be more understanding, to be less expectant, to love him more unconditionally. it aint easy.

september 31st seems so near yet so far. it was in the future, but its now history. my invisible boyfriend is now a visible friend. well. for the better of tomorrows. i guess this is it. this should be it.

Lord, deal with me.

p.s. my invisible boyfriend, thank you for all that you've done to help me at my times of downs. thank you for loving and still caring. i still care too, buddy. been great, the few months we had. i'll miss u as my invisible boyfriend. and kudos to our buddyship in the many more days ahead.

With hugs.