The Hoos - Haaz of Huzzle Buzzlezzling Hiong Gong...!

Yepp I was in Hong Kong for about 6 days for work. My very first overseas duty trip, my second time to Hong Kong. Almost every one went "wow". Yes I totally acknowledge it's a good opportunity, and yes it is, but it wasn't all that fun at all to be honest. Guess I just wasn't all that ready for the trip. Not that my administrative preparation wasn't enough, no way, but it was a "culture stun" for me. No time for meditation as I was already juggling on four limbs with two projects' pre-preparation, both running at the same time. I would cut myself some slack and explain myself that I'm still inexperience in leading like two back-to-back projects on my own, even though both are small-scaled on the Humpty-dumpty-o-meter. As I was saying...Hong Kong wasn't fun at all...well as you could have guessed, something not so pleasant happened. It's peanut for many I believe, but it set some things in a different light for me, it's all in the mind I agree. Don't every one has a mind? You mean you don't. Attained enlightenment already or what?

Now what happened? Just as I trusted impartiality, limits and bottomlines, I underestimated some people, or should I say, I overestimated em. Underestimated their degree of selfishness, and overestimated their ability to be THAT impartial. Where have all their conscience gone to? How can someone actually speak lies of the poor kid right before her, like as if it's all true? Knowing very well it would get her into some kind of trouble. Psst. I don't give a FUCK about trouble aight. I'm just super disgusted at that gesture. I tell u, if you have a disgust-o-meter, it will burst the very second and create a firework. I gave a measure of my trust, a neutral respect and benefit of doubt, but what do I get in return? "Deal with it, this is the real world for you..." from someone who's claimed to be impartial, someone who's supposingly my leader. Impartial my arse (my arse is more impartial, the left equivalent to the right at least). You call that impartial? Tell me I'm wrong (I'll slap you with one pair of pretty jiggly arse). At that moment, I felt like a fool. All the 48/7 efforts put in didn't build a single speck of trust for me, not a single measure of consideration made even, about my feelings. Right, now every one has feelings, doesn't he? Lesson no. 2: REMEMBER. You CANNOT be absolutely impartial becuase human is still human, emotions is in any case one of the major elements that affects your judgement, you like it or not. Okay, so what am I whining about basically? Disappointment. I should have slapped myself first. Cuz Daddy says trust not unto man, but in Him I should place all my trust. I took the first wrong step but trusting human nature. That's basically what I'm whining about - my own silly mistake.

Well what doesn't kill only makes me stronger yea?

Cheers! To the stronger by day Ms Green.

All glory and praises to my dear Lord and Abba Father alone.